"I love you"

"For now" I jokingly responded. "I love you, too"

But we both know. We are young. We really do feel love, stronger than adults, i believe. But it's like we are infants again. You give us something and we don't know what it is or even how to use it.
Or.
Maybe I'm just thinking too much again. I tend to do overthink simple things.
I wish i could stop myself. Tell myself, "He simply likes you. And you, him."

But to wrap it up, Thanks guys. Im so happy we're together again.
<3

Waiting.

What I'm doing now.
What I'd do forever for you.
What eats at my insides.
What makes me obsess.

Story Time.

But, It was not your fault, but mine.
And it was your heart on the line.
I really f***ed it up this time.
Didn't I, my dear?
Didn't I, my dear?


I went out with this guy. I felt like anything was possible when we were together, and apart, he was all I could think about.
I never wanted to leave his side. But one weekend, he got wasted with his friends, and broke up with me. Im not going to lie, I was pretty upset. But not heart broken. No one will ever do that to me.

Previously, He had lied to me, saying "No, I dont do those things. Really."
But, he does. Alot apparently.

A month or two goes by. Not a sorry or an explanation. Just a hey in homeroom. All i could think was "Really? Hey? Don't you see what you are doing to me?"
But I would never tell him that.

So summer rolls around. He messaged me on facebook. Says he is really sorry for everything. For lying, and not talking to me. Said, breaking up with me was the worst thing he has ever done. He writes about how since getting drunk and high made him make such a mistake, he hasn't done it since.
Really?

But I won't be naive. I know he doesn't mean a thing.
I call. We talk for awhile. I tell him what I think about him and he takes it like a good sport. He makes me laugh and I'm right there again. Laughing like an idiot, being the happiest I've ever been.

Oh, how I miss that boy.
But I won't take him back.
Not now.

We talk everyday.
And yesterday he sent me the song "Little Lion Man" by Mumford and Sons. (Youtube it!)
The chorus are the lyrics I wrote.
It made me cry a little. I'm such a nerd.
But It hit home I guess. And although not a day goes by where I don't think about him. Now its constant. Just like the song he sent. I put it on my ipod immediately. It literally has not once stopped playing.

That's my story. A stupid story about a stupid boy. And I know it all won't matter. But It matters now. Even though I'm only fourteen.
I know it's not love. We are just in like, i guess.

The End.