Those little pages.

Insomnia. Fighting. Disconnection. Dissapointment. Guilt.

I wrote these words down on those little pages. In that little tablet.

"Well, since I can't blog for awhile, I will write my ideas down."
I thought this. Because that's the way my freak brain works. An emotion will run through my body and then i think. "That's bloggable." Weird. I didn't think i would love blogging as much as i do. Even if only one person will think to check it.
This might be a long post. So you can stop now if you want. But, in my opinion, the longer ones are better.

My week has been the worst.

All week long, I haven't been able to get online. And for a girl who isn't allowed a cell phone, it's the only way for me to feel an ounce of connection to the world.

And the worst part yet is, I have been a total insomniac this week. And usually when my body can't fall into that suspension of conscienceness at night, I get on the computer.

I will check Rainborevolver's and my own blog every ten minutes. (Of all the blogs i have ever visited, her's by far is the best xD )
Hmm, maybe she posted something? Maybe a comment was left on my blog?
But I'm only kidding myself when i think this.

I check formspring and aim for my buddy Daniel. Whom, i miss terribly.
Daniel!? Why aren't you on? Oh yeah, you are a normal human being with a life, so naturally, you are sleeping at 3 am.

I will read akizzillion MLIA's and some amirite's. They are fantastic.

I might read my facebook wall. Entirely. Twice.


I'm a freakin loser, huh?
But these things will keep me entertained for an hour or so, when I am finally ready for bed.

So with no computer, I was left with only movies. By the way, The Taking of Phelam 123 is a great watch, I definately recommend it if you love cussing jerks with guns (:

I guess im done for now.
Sorry if I don't blog for awhile. Problems are occuring with me, my mom, and the laptop. :D